6 months

My baby is 6 months today and just celebrated his first Christmas in heaven. Christmas morning felt as though I had lost him all over again and the same deep pain from his birthday had returned. A feeling I couldn’t bare to feel again. But the lessons I have learned and the strength I have gained in the last 6 months help me see the bigger picture. Nothing can fix this pain temporarily but knowing Jesus on an intimate level helps me realize that clinging to the future is worth it. Eternity is worth believing. The magic of Christmas on earth allows us to realize that there will be endless and painless christmases with our loved ones. So until that wonderful day, I picture my baby celebrating to the fullest with the king. And for these temporary Christmases and milestones, surround yourself with family and friends that care deeply. That can love on you and dry your tears and celebrate the life that you miss so dearly. For me, that brings healing and comfort knowing my baby will never be forgotten. Liam makes us all better. Thank you Jesus for getting us this far and continuing to give us the strength to continue too.